佳期如梦

无意间看了一部名为“佳期如梦”的连续剧，剧中男主角-妧正东，女主角-尤佳期，由相恨到相识再到相许，中间的起伏转折， 误会重重， 但他们仍相爱着彼此。刚开始我对这部剧期待不大但到了，最后的五分钟，我的泪，落下了，我的心，疼了。我以为他们会有美好结局但， 但是他还是死了，他死了， 我无法接受，但他还是离开了女主角，他们的爱没有惊天动地但对他们，对我而言却刻骨铭心，他们在经历了重重关卡后更加珍惜着彼此但老天爷却开了他们一个更大的玩笑！他-东子，得了脑癌，而她坚持守着他就算他希望她能够离开他，因为他再觉得自己再也给不起她要的幸福，他不知道她要的其实是最简单不过的他的陪伴~ 她对他说过“如果你还可以走那就陪我一起走完这辈子，如果你的双脚走不动了但手还能动，那就用你的双手来牵我的手，如果双手双脚都动不了了那就用你的双眼看着我一直到天长地久，这就是我要的幸福，有你的陪伴，我才幸福”。。。。。。剧中有一首让我非常着迷的歌名为“遗憾”-方炯宾，我的泪止不住~

What's that `

yup ~ the title wrote what's that ~ but it doesn't matter it's just over ~ let it be ~!!!! At lease I face it ~ but it's just doesn't work ...so no more effort ! Please just let go ~ I'm begging myself ~ yup that's a little bit crazy ..I want to back to normal I mean usual ~

Pangkor trip !

I'd just return from the Pangkor island .The trip was created or organised by student council and it's kind of awesome trip ! I do loved it ! At 1st I'm not joining the trip but it's was just last minute decision. 
    The first day which 23 Sept 2011 we met at KBU about 6am ?!?! and we departure at 7.30am ! Everyone was excited ~ and when we arrived it's around 1 or 2pm , we got our room checked in and we settle our lunch ~ nearly 5.30pm some of us going to the town aria to have a walk ~ and someone suggested to go to the Deli restaurant to have our dinner and we can watch the sunset ~ and we move again ! The food there is normal (I'd not have a meal there) and the view is awesome ~and we went back to the hotel . At 10pm we had our activities and something did happen ..and we had our talk in my friends room `and some of us drink alcohol ~and at about 2.30am we dismiss and go to sleep, but I'm still awaken and had a talked with two friends
    The second day , we have had one day trip and the last station is the beach ~ we swam and unfortunately i got sun burn ~ (WTH) and our dinner is barbeque's it's just nice ...and at night I sleep in guys room with my friend ...we play guitar there (I'll learning) and it's just nice 
    last day we're going back to KL and it's just sad ~ because that mean no more relaxing environment (you get what i mean) I'm super happy that I went ~ I'd make no regret or anything else ~ sorry I'm just tired ~ photo will be upload later ~

Who are you ? You're just who you are !

Sometime someone ask you to change ! They told you that you did something wrong , you should do like XXXXXX but when you really changed ,someone will come out and tell you the other ways and ask you to follow ....and at the end you don't even know who you are ! Everyone got their own identity and no one is perfect , we should not aspect someone to be perfect in all the ways ! When you start to complain, I sure that you'll not stop ! Sometime I'm curious why we should listen to people ? We listen to people to make us more perfect ? yes, I think so but people should not thought that we're suppose to accept every opinion given by them ! We living in this world try to make our life more comfortable and earning money to cover our daily expenditure but sometime we lose our own way. When we lose our own way, we starting to be curious and more people walk through this in their live but someone lose their way in their whole life so we're counted lucky because we're still on our own way ~ So my conclusion is we should listen to people all the time but we could accept or reject their opinion depend on the truth or false in our mind !

stress

I dunno why but the world is too small ~ I'd no other places to write anything to release my stress ...When i wrote something some one will told me "you should not wrote something like this, you should...." but please ..some times I just want to be myself !!! Not being care about others opinion ...If everything I do I think it's reasonable so why not ? I just curious why some people they like to control us ? maybe they initially purpose is not that but they really make me felt like that ! I'd no my own "space" ...I can't even do whatever I like maybe it's no good to do that every single times but just once ..I felt like omg it's hell ~ I just intend to share something but you really make me felt like I won't post anything there for u to check out ! i hate people that look in to my life when they're not welcome ! 

Loneliness , what I want is that simple !

Heart ~ feel like so ..so ...."empty" ..maybe this word might be suitable but it might not too.....maybe I'd limited resources so that's why I can't fulfill what I want ~what I want is only simple things ....I need someone to care about me ~ dun let me always to follow others ..sometimes I hope somebody can ask me a simple question "how are you, everything good ?" but somebody did ask ...but they're too far away from me ~ who stay nearer never bother what I might think ! Some times acting is too tired for me ...the real me ..I cant differentiate after a long period of time ....I really couldn't found my heart ! I just need some one that can accompany me ~What I want is only that simple !   


Luckily not much people know my blog !

Friendship

"Friendship forever" people do said this word in their live ~ but did the word come true ? What mean friend ? What mean real friend ? Friend and Real friend is the same ? The answer is no ! People do meet each other ~ but the relationship between two person can be easy or complicated.There're too many type of relationship between two person for example friend, best friend,couple, husband and wife, children and parent just to name a few.I'm bad in communication(I think) I'd only a few friends, that's what the real friends. Real friends mean two person not contact so frequent but when you need them they'll be always available for you to share happiness, sadness and everything.I have had many experienced, the communication skill with friend must be there, the first step to built up friendship is super easy, you can just "hi, how are you ?" then the process to be friend done ! but when come to communication it's super hard !(I swear it's super hard)....one Chinese phase state the you'll understand what people thinking only when time pass for a long period, it's true ! Some times you might think that why should I make a lot of friends ? Alone not bad what. It's depend on particular situation. Some people is suitable to be friend but some more suitable to be stranger (to avoid "war") ~~ 

Admires, Like and Love

What is the different between admires, like and love ? It's a total different thing or it's just a kind steps or process to be in love..... Well the answer is ~ I don't know anything ` I do love my family, my book, my friends ~ but when it come to the others relationship like bf and gf .....I have no idea ! I always confuse between this three~ but it probably is just admired ~~ When you feel like you like someone ....maybe you would try to get to know more about him ? but do have somebody try to get away from da particular person ! It's sound weird doesn't ? I got a lot of friends fall in love with each other ...I just wonder that how could they confirm that guy/girl is the person they're searching ~ However it's the time problem ~ only time can prove what is the real thing right ? I love one sentence which "fall in love is the most easy step but when come to live/communicate with each other it's tough" ....so I'm going to stop sharing about this particular topic at this particular time ~ thanks for reading ~

I need some one else !!

home sick badly ~~~ today I'd met my mom at around 1 to 2 pm ...we ate lunch together with my sister and her friend at Madam Kwan it was really good taste ~~ and later we went to the Kinokuniya book store we bought many books ....i bought "the host" i think and hope it will be a good book for me to read ~~ love my mom ~` now i felt the lyrics of "Goodbye" ,it's true that goodbye is the saddest word !! when it was the time to say goodbye ,I felt bad ~~ it's hard to speak that word ! So forgive me ....I've no courage to say this word to anyone of my family and friends ~~ remember I'll always love u all !!
"Goodbye's (The Saddest Word)"

Mamma
You gave life to me
Turned a baby into a lady

Mamma
All you had to offer
Was the promise of a lifetime of love

Now I know
There is no other
Love like a mother's love for her child

And I know
A love so complete
Someday must leave
Must say goodbye

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

Mamma
You gave love to me
Turned a young one into a woman

Mamma
All I ever needed
Was a guarantee of you loving me

'Cause I know
There is no other
Love like a mother's love for her child

And it hurts so
That something so strong
Someday will be gone, must say goodbye

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

But the love you gave me will always live
You'll always be there every time I fall
You are to me the greatest love of all
You take my weakness and you make me strong
And I will always love you 'til forever comes

And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there this I promise you, Mamma

Mamma, I'll be
I'll be your beacon through the darkest nights
I'll be the wings that guide your broken flight
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
And I will love you 'till forever comes

Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye

'Till we meet again...
Until then...
Goodbye 

Mid-night 0138

突然间，我发现人生对不同的人拥有不同的意义，有的人认为恋爱是人生的必经过程，有的人认为读书是一切，有的人认为人生很漫长，又有的人认为人生很短暂。从不同的角度，不同的双眼和在不同的时间去看人生会得到不一样的画面。小学时期，我们都还很天真的认为还有用不完的时间，我们成天埋怨功课压力，老师太严希望赶快升上初中。升上初中时，才发现原来小学有多么轻松，在整个中学时期，我们还是盼望着毕业的一刻希望赶快脱离老师的魔掌，哈！可笑的却是上了学院我才发现中学真的是天堂 ！凌晨一点三十八分，我突然想起我这一生到底做了什么值得纪念的事情，我还能深呼吸的时间还剩多少？人们常说人生苦短，有什么想做的，想去实践的就不要迟疑，不要到老了才来懊悔。“对不起”，“我错了”，“早知道”等等，都是被创造来掩饰我们错误的决定，选择。但错误的存在却是帮助我们成长的良药，人生充满了选择题，在下一个路口要往哪一个方向前进，下一步该怎么走，走错了是否意味着我们就得停滞不前？不是的！走错了我们就多了一个经验，我们知道什么是错误的，那么下一次我们会更谨慎的走不从蹈覆辙。那么希望看见这篇文章的人，想想活到这一刻你到底做了哪些事情，你的人生活的有意义吗？？？

  

First Visit !

RED BOX K-room ~~(denis,hui shan,hong yi,Ejeen)

Had fun with friends ~~(hui shan,hong yi,Ejeen,Moon)

happy time ~(Ejeen,denis,hong yi,Moon)

This Tuesday I'd visit the curve with four of my friends(after class) ~~ we had our lunch at 'Little Penang'(so expensive) ~~ Then we went to to Red Box counter to ask for the price and then we got the larger room ~~ We sang continuously for three hours , it was really fun but cant visit frequently ,if not sure bankrupt , haha ..after that Moon cousin fetched me home (thanks , Moon)...Really enjoyed times hang out with friends ~~ I think we'll plan another activities then that at time we should invite more friends ~~ haha

At lease I did something today ~~

A little bit of my spirits return !! What a good news ~~ ha ha ....today I did learn some new things and try my best to understand and remember the content . Sometimes for human to maintain self-control or disciplines is kind of difficulty but it's still a must for us to maintain .....discipline is some sort of behavior , if we fail to maintain it then everything will lead to a very bad results , our life will become disrupt and that's mean "world end" for the us ....maybe not everybody have such thinking or mind but for me,YES . Today , I'd pull back a little of my "self-control thing" ...hope that it keep on going and increase in ascending order/form~~

Finally ...today is sunday~~

Finally, Sunday come ~ that's mean at lease got something to do on the next day ~~ I hate holiday especially when I need to be alone in  holidays !! I did nothing in my holidays....just stay online ...I tried to do something but really no mood !! Spirit ..my spirit ~where u go ? I miss u ~~ I hope I'll find my spirit ....and be hard working again !! and I'll find it !! I want to be good but I know before that ..I need to do my best to be good !! I think I can !! so just START !!

RAVE 2 ~~ Please help me buy at lease one ticket !! Please I need ur support !!

RAVE is back!!!
It is going to be bigger, better and crazier!! Guaranteed to get all you party people screaming for more!!!

After 3 years since our previous RAVE, it is now back to hype up your college life and take you away from all the work stress that has been piling up, giving you a night filled with music, lights, and definitely lots of dancing! So put away your books people and make way for RAVE 2!!

Date: 10th June 2011 (Friday)
Venue: KBU Multipurpose Hall (Level 3)
Time: 7.00pm-11.00pm

Tickets are now open for sale. Just head over my blog to inform me (please help me buy one ticket ,I need to sell at lease 5 tickets !!)and get your ticket today! All KBU and non-KBU students are invited to join us for this adrenaline pumping event, so make sure you bring all you party people along!!

Ticket prices are as follow:

• Early-bird: RM25
• Graduates: RM 25
• Normal: RM 30

For more info, visit our website @ rave2.kbusc.com

 

writing competition ~~

Memory

visit our lovely addmath teacher house ~

2010 CHKB Marching Band Form 5 members !

30th day

I been here for almost one month.In this month, I'd met a lot of new friends most of them are my current classmates..haha....all of them are kind,brilliant and funny ..they like to joke,gossip, play... but some times I still miss my hometown friends , I miss my band members ,my snaredrum(actually not belong to me,hihi)....I'm still learn new things ~ all the subjects I study is totally difference from secondary school !! I hope everything will lead to a good ways ~~ I miss my grandparent , parent, sis and bro !! Good luck to all of u and me ~ haha ...