heart broken

After all...all i'm chasing for means nothing ... i had never got support by family ..it's like a endless hope... I knew I shouldnt expect them for all this but it's just too over... I cant take it anymore... From now on no more important news for them. . . no more ... disappointed ... I'm on my own now ....no one try to understand me ... like no one ... heart broken ... who else can i trust .. is that true ..the world had changed to the situation that no one I can trust ... life is like so hard to continue ... how should i go on

佳期如梦

无意间看了一部名为“佳期如梦”的连续剧，剧中男主角-妧正东，女主角-尤佳期，由相恨到相识再到相许，中间的起伏转折， 误会重重， 但他们仍相爱着彼此。刚开始我对这部剧期待不大但到了，最后的五分钟，我的泪，落下了，我的心，疼了。我以为他们会有美好结局但， 但是他还是死了，他死了， 我无法接受，但他还是离开了女主角，他们的爱没有惊天动地但对他们，对我而言却刻骨铭心，他们在经历了重重关卡后更加珍惜着彼此但老天爷却开了他们一个更大的玩笑！他-东子，得了脑癌，而她坚持守着他就算他希望她能够离开他，因为他再觉得自己再也给不起她要的幸福，他不知道她要的其实是最简单不过的他的陪伴~ 她对他说过“如果你还可以走那就陪我一起走完这辈子，如果你的双脚走不动了但手还能动，那就用你的双手来牵我的手，如果双手双脚都动不了了那就用你的双眼看着我一直到天长地久，这就是我要的幸福，有你的陪伴，我才幸福”。。。。。。剧中有一首让我非常着迷的歌名为“遗憾”-方炯宾，我的泪止不住~

What's that `

yup ~ the title wrote what's that ~ but it doesn't matter it's just over ~ let it be ~!!!! At lease I face it ~ but it's just doesn't work ...so no more effort ! Please just let go ~ I'm begging myself ~ yup that's a little bit crazy ..I want to back to normal I mean usual ~

Pangkor trip !

I'd just return from the Pangkor island .The trip was created or organised by student council and it's kind of awesome trip ! I do loved it ! At 1st I'm not joining the trip but it's was just last minute decision. 
    The first day which 23 Sept 2011 we met at KBU about 6am ?!?! and we departure at 7.30am ! Everyone was excited ~ and when we arrived it's around 1 or 2pm , we got our room checked in and we settle our lunch ~ nearly 5.30pm some of us going to the town aria to have a walk ~ and someone suggested to go to the Deli restaurant to have our dinner and we can watch the sunset ~ and we move again ! The food there is normal (I'd not have a meal there) and the view is awesome ~and we went back to the hotel . At 10pm we had our activities and something did happen ..and we had our talk in my friends room `and some of us drink alcohol ~and at about 2.30am we dismiss and go to sleep, but I'm still awaken and had a talked with two friends
    The second day , we have had one day trip and the last station is the beach ~ we swam and unfortunately i got sun burn ~ (WTH) and our dinner is barbeque's it's just nice ...and at night I sleep in guys room with my friend ...we play guitar there (I'll learning) and it's just nice 
    last day we're going back to KL and it's just sad ~ because that mean no more relaxing environment (you get what i mean) I'm super happy that I went ~ I'd make no regret or anything else ~ sorry I'm just tired ~ photo will be upload later ~

Who are you ? You're just who you are !

Sometime someone ask you to change ! They told you that you did something wrong , you should do like XXXXXX but when you really changed ,someone will come out and tell you the other ways and ask you to follow ....and at the end you don't even know who you are ! Everyone got their own identity and no one is perfect , we should not aspect someone to be perfect in all the ways ! When you start to complain, I sure that you'll not stop ! Sometime I'm curious why we should listen to people ? We listen to people to make us more perfect ? yes, I think so but people should not thought that we're suppose to accept every opinion given by them ! We living in this world try to make our life more comfortable and earning money to cover our daily expenditure but sometime we lose our own way. When we lose our own way, we starting to be curious and more people walk through this in their live but someone lose their way in their whole life so we're counted lucky because we're still on our own way ~ So my conclusion is we should listen to people all the time but we could accept or reject their opinion depend on the truth or false in our mind !

stress

I dunno why but the world is too small ~ I'd no other places to write anything to release my stress ...When i wrote something some one will told me "you should not wrote something like this, you should...." but please ..some times I just want to be myself !!! Not being care about others opinion ...If everything I do I think it's reasonable so why not ? I just curious why some people they like to control us ? maybe they initially purpose is not that but they really make me felt like that ! I'd no my own "space" ...I can't even do whatever I like maybe it's no good to do that every single times but just once ..I felt like omg it's hell ~ I just intend to share something but you really make me felt like I won't post anything there for u to check out ! i hate people that look in to my life when they're not welcome ! 

Loneliness , what I want is that simple !

Heart ~ feel like so ..so ...."empty" ..maybe this word might be suitable but it might not too.....maybe I'd limited resources so that's why I can't fulfill what I want ~what I want is only simple things ....I need someone to care about me ~ dun let me always to follow others ..sometimes I hope somebody can ask me a simple question "how are you, everything good ?" but somebody did ask ...but they're too far away from me ~ who stay nearer never bother what I might think ! Some times acting is too tired for me ...the real me ..I cant differentiate after a long period of time ....I really couldn't found my heart ! I just need some one that can accompany me ~What I want is only that simple !   


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